LL Cool J Lyrics.....

Baby smile today
Cuz I been on that journey always
I'm gon' love you better
When your friends'll see you too
Just when you think there's nothin' else I can do
I'm gon' love you better

First thought going through your mind is probably OH BRIT GOT HERSELF A MAN SHE SWEET ON!!!! MMHMM YOU GO GIRL!!!
Wrong! I chose to post and talk about these lyrics because they are dedicated to me, by me. If there's anything I've learned recently in my life is that you gotta love yourself because if not you, then who? Not ol' dude! Shooot that's for damn sure. No man will love you if you don't love yourself....and even if you do it's not guaranteed he will love you the way you deserve.
Friends can love you sure, but those friendships can also fade. Most friendships aren't life long so if you depend solely on a friend to love you and make you feel loved, what will you do once they're gone?
Now you're family loves you....but that's like....kissing your Grandma. You don't really have a choice in the matter. When Granny comes in puckering and saliva lipped, you just gotta do it. Most of the time you know your fam bam is gonna love you, support you, and have your back no matter what but it's still an external love you know? True love needs to come from the inside.

Ok so I'm going to expose a flaw of mine and hopefully it will give you some better insight to who I am and where I've come from. I've been a person who looked for love externally. It's how I survived. I needed to be loved from men, excepted by friends, and get uber amounts of attention and praise from my family. If any lacked I felt miserable. This lead to far too many unhealthy relationships where love, respect, and honesty were absent. It also put me in friendships that weren't good for my personality, morals, or goals in life. And with family, I put too much emphasis on my failures because I wasn't praised as much I had felt I needed or wanted.

I'm happy to say that today, I know better. Brittany *mumbles middle name* Glenn no longer thinks this way. If I had loved MYSELF all these years I would have NEVER made those decisions, lowered my standards, or blamed family for my short comings. At this very moment I know I am beautiful inside and out, deserving of love, and will never let a man set the bar for my self worth. I can entertain, confide in, and be there for myself not needing half broken, one sided, empty friendships. I am smart, have accomplished much, will be something great in life, and know my family thinks the same way even if words are not spoken about it. It was a hard road getting to this point of enlightenment and it wasn't until I found myself at the bottom alone, unhappy, and hurting that I realized I had no where else to go but up. Best believe my boots are laced, back pack on, sun block applied...I'm not stopping till I reach the top!